So much so that with research, a loving and supportive femme, and a network of wonderful trans and femme friends, I have fully and confidently come to my trans identity.

I am butch and will always be butch. Butch is a way of manners, dress, ethics and respect. Butch is anything from holding the door for your femme to complimenting her beauty to carrying heavy bags of groceries. However, butch transcends the basics. You are her rock, her security, her comfort. Never let her feel insecure or threatened. Age shouldn't matter when it comes to respecting and treating your femme properly. I will still be butch after I physically transition. I'm in a intensely wonderful butch-femme relationship with my babygirl, Danielle. She will always be my femme.

We have experienced some backlash from the gay & lesbian communities in regards to my trans-ID. Transition is a really hard thing to go through. No matter what city you live in or how cool your family might be, you really have to be prepared for the worst reactions. I have lost friends, family, and a lot of trust from my own gay & lesbian friends. I didn't perform as a drag king at The PussyCat Lounge because of their transphobic advertising. We had to leave a house party hosted by The Sugar Daddy Show because of their transphobic remarks and gossip Danielle and I overheard. Trans-identity is a very timely discussion & debate. Because transmen and transwomen are getting more visibility, it has created opposition, in my case, from fellow butches (female-born), femmes, my mom, my aunts, my grandmother, my former roommate, college friends, certain drag kings - who are all against physical transition. There are many different genders and identities. Once we stop living the gender binary then we can start to accept all genders!

Some of the good things in my life have been co-creating a Zine with Danielle called COCK TALES:  The TG ThinKING KING's Zine. It's a free 'zine we send out monthly all about the intersections of drag and transgender. I have a drag son, Prince Nicoli Dewar, whom we met at Orange County's GLBT youth center. He's a remarkable 16 year old trangendered baby butch. And at the end of this month I have my appointment to begin testosterone.

My baby and I just watched SOUTHERN COMFORT, a documentary about a FTM dying of ovarian cancer because he couldn't get the medical treatment he so desperately needed and his lover, Lola Cola (an MTF), said the most amazing statement, "Nature delights in diversity... why can't human beings?"